Monday, February 15, 2010

How to let go?

My daughter is nearly 13.  As such, she is an expert in EVERYTHING, and I, the idiot formerly known as "mommy", have absolutely no understanding of anything whatsoever.

She also has had type 1 diabetes for 4 1/2 years.  In that time, I, the idiot formerly known as "mommy", have become fairly well versed in amateur endocrinology.  I read, I listen, I watch, I ask questions, and though I can't claim to have any control over diabetes, I think I have a fairly decent working knowledge of what it does to her.

Dear daughter has decided that THIS is the hill on which she will make her stand. Even the mere mention of a blood sugar check from me sends her into a frenzy of eye-rolling, huffing, and grumbling under her breath at me. So I have been instructed to pull back.  Let it go.  LET.  IT.  GO.  Let her be in charge and allow the consequences to evolve.






YEAH, RIGHT.  HOW EXACTLY AM I SUPPOSED TO DO THAT????

I'm trying. I've given over most of the responsibility to the Dear Husband....a wonderful guy, but he's not doing it my way and it makes me want to pull my hair out.....there's nothing wrong with his way, exactly - it's just NOT MY WAY.   Control freak, much?  Yes, thanks for asking.

Here's the kicker.  She wanted to stop going to the nurse for BG checks and bolusing at school. Okaaaayyy....she came up with a plan that she thought she could stick to, and we gave her a week to try.



Well, she didn't stick to it.  Days without testing - she bolused for lunch, at least, but no checks.  Crapola.

So my solution is "fine, don't go to the nurse, but wear your Freestyle Navigator Continuous Glucose Monitoring System" (also known as mom's little sanity saver - I HEART the cgm).  
Hysterics ensue.  Reasons, rational and not-so-rational, fly around the room like crazed hummingbirds, all punctuated by sobs and hiccups.  Sigh.  What's a "stepping back from it all" mom to do?


I'm thinking running away and joining the circus might be in my future.  I'll send a postcard.

7 comments:

  1. I am so glad you get to get through these teen years long before I will get there! It will be nice to have someone who has BTDT! :)

    Good luck with DD! :)

    Keep us posted on how things are going.

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  2. I have the opposite going on, but yet our situations are eerily the same. I am being forced by the doctor to step back and let J, (also 12) take the reigns. Huh...he likes to miss checks too. He is counting his own carbs now, and it takes everything in me not to correct his guesses. He is always REALLY close to what I would say, but those five carbs can make a world of difference in his BG's. I'm getting good at zipping it, but sometimes I HAVE to chime in. That is when I get "the look."

    I feel your pain sistah.

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  3. Oh geez Beth! I cant imagine! I cant, I cant, I cant!! I must confess, I dont check my BS 8-10 times a day anymore....why? I dont know why....I just dont want too! Of course, my BS are extremely predictable and I never have to correct a number during the day as long as I bolus for what I eat....not sure what my point is....but, I understand Meghans not checking. Its not good, its not "right" BUT...I get it.

    Man, this is hard! I dont know what to say....my heart breaks for you. No words of knowledge. Just understanding :)

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  4. Oh Beth... from one control freak to another - I feel your pain! I am SO not looking forward to this.... I have no advice - you're way ahead of me on this. Just hang in there, friend. One day you'll be back to being "Mom" and not the "idiot formerly known as Mommy". But if you go to the circus before then - let me know! I may join you!

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  5. Ugh! One of my biggest fears. The teen years. Hayleigh is almost 10 and I am already dealing with the eye rolling and huffing and puffing whenever I tell her to check her blood sugar. I know it will only get worse from here.

    I seriously lie awake at night worrying about those times when she won't really need me anymore. Or at least she will THINK she won't need me. I have done everything MY way for the past 5 years when it comes to her D. I don't even know how to begin to let go. I can't even think about that right now!

    I'm sorry you are dealing with this now. I wish I had some helpful advice. But if you run away please save a spot for me wherever you are. I'm sure I will be there in a few years.

    (((HUGS)))

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  6. Ugh! One of my biggest fears. The teen years. Hayleigh is almost 10 and I am already dealing with the eye rolling and huffing and puffing whenever I tell her to check her blood sugar. I know it will only get worse from here.

    I seriously lie awake at night worrying about those times when she won't really need me anymore. Or at least she will THINK she won't need me. I have done everything MY way for the past 5 years when it comes to her D. I don't even know how to begin to let go. I can't even think about that right now!

    I'm sorry you are dealing with this now. I wish I had some helpful advice. But if you run away please save a spot for me wherever you are. I'm sure I will be there in a few years.

    (((HUGS)))

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